Because I Have to!

"Because I have to" is becoming an important mantra in my life. Sometimes. I don't feel I am really ready to go out and live my life to the fullest for fear of having another panic attack in public, but I do because I have to. Sometimes I don't want to get out of my bed because my world is scary and the anxiety is skin crawling, but I do because I have to. Sometimes I'm very happy and sometimes I'm very sad and I don't want to take all of these crazy medications, but I do because I have to. You see the pattern here?  I push myself to the limit, but I do it because I have to. I don't always succeed at my tasks but a true survivor hurtles the obstacles and does whatever it takes to beat the odds. I do this every day, why? because I have to!